St. Augustine of Hippo is a giant of the faith. He was monumental in helping the church establish a doctrine of grace against Pelagianism. He also wrote many influential works, the two most famous being Confessions (his spiritual autobiography) and City of God. The story of how he came to Christ is marvelous and encouraging to all who are longing for true rest.
Augustine’s life can be characterized as a search for joy. His main pursuit was carnal pleasure, which left him empty. Augustine reflected on his search, “I did not ask for more certain proof of you, but only to be made more steadfast in you.” Augustine did not want a water-tight argument for Christianity. He wanted a water-tight Person who would promise and deliver true joy.
His pursuit led him to sexual promiscuity. Aside from some very wild teen years, he lived with one woman (whom he never names) for a long time, though they never married. He admits that this experience helped him discover the difference between a marriage covenant with the purpose of raising Christian children and a “bargain struck for lust.”
In search of deliverance from this lust, Augustine sought out his friend Simplicianus. Simplicianus told him the conversion story of Victorinus. Augustine remarks that the story “shows the great glory of your grace.” Most likely, Augustine meant that the story shows God’s grace in Victorinus’ life, but also how God used it to change his own life.
When Augustine heard of Victorinus’ public profession, he “began to glow with fervor to imitate him,” which was precisely why Simplicianus told the story in the first place. Mere imitation cannot change a heart, but what transpired after this encounter was that Augustine increasingly realized his depravity and need for a Redeemer.
Augustine describes his conversion in terms of being “released…from the fetters of lust.” Another story brought that about. One day with his friend Alypius, Augustine was visited by a fellow-African named Ponticianus. Just like Simplicianus, Ponticianus shared a story with Augustine: this one about release from the world through monastic living.
Augustine realized God was using Ponticianus’ story to help him see “how sordid…how deformed and squalid” his heart was. But Augustine prayed, “Give me chastity and continence, but not yet.” The Holy Spirit overcame such resistance and God drew Augustine to Christ. After Ponticianus left, Augustine was in the spiritual birth canal, as it were: “I was beside myself with madness that would bring me sanity,” Augustine wrote. “I was dying a death that would bring me life.”
Augustine’s self-understanding heightened as he wrestled with his desire for holiness and carnal pleasure. After a physical assault on his own body, he isolated himself from Alypius and asked his soul, ‘How long shall I go on saying, ‘tomorrow, tomorrow’? Why not now? Why not make an end of my ugly sins at this moment?”
As Augustine surrendered, he heard a voice saying, “Take it and read!” He returned to Alypius where Paul’s letters lay on the table. He read Romans 13:13-14 and embraced the call to clothe himself with Christ. Augustine wrote, “You converted me to yourself, so that I no longer desired a wife or placed any hope in this world.”
Who saved Augustine? God did. But he did not use not water-tight, rational arguments to save Augustine. God used two stories that exposed Augustine’s desire for worldly pleasure and showed the glorious, eternal joy available when God is the object of pleasure.
 Augustine Confessions 8.1.
 Ibid., 4.2.
 Ibid., 8.2.
 Ibid., 8.5.
 Ibid., 8.6.
 Ibid., 8.7.
 Ibid., 8.7.
 Ibid., 8.8.
 In 8.9-10, Augustine enters into a fascinating reflection on the nature of the will.
 Ibid., 8.8.
 Ibid., 8.12.