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Confessions of a 9 Year-Old Theologian

Theological perplexities are not supposed to happen to a 9 year-old.  At that age, you are meant to play with Legos, watch Saturday morning cartoons, and get excited about shoes that light up on the heels.  I had the latter in abundance.  But at times, the former showed up during long sleepless nights.

In 1993, I didn’t have a blog to confess to the world my problematic theology.  But I’m telling you now.  Let’s call it social networking transparency.

Deep breath, James.  Okay.  Here goes nothing.

There were times when I stayed awake for hours, desperately praying to God that I wouldn’t be that guy to get to heaven and then, like Lucifer, say, “I want to be God.”  I was afraid of going from heaven to hell in a heartbeat because of five words.  This prayer happened often over the course of a few months.  At some point, I stopped praying and believing that.  Looking back, I realize that God was gracious to cause me to face issues of election, perseverance of the saints, God’s unchanging nature, and his eternal love without knowing it.  In other words, he was creating a theologian.

My theology isn’t perfect today.  No one’s is.  But by God’s grace, I know a bit more than I did when I was nine.  Whoever is foreknown by God is also predestined, called, justified, and glorified (see Rom. 8:29-30).  He guarantees I’m eternally secure.

What thoughts did you have about God growing up that were a little “off”?


5 replies on “Confessions of a 9 Year-Old Theologian”

I have faith that if I believe God every thing is poosible. For instance during my child life I was a naughty boy, but as life goes on I accepted God and He helped me in many cases. I am now studying at university, but my family do not have money to pay my tertiary fees.


Hi James,

Long time since I’ve stopped by, so I thought I’d just drop a comment to say hi.

My misconception was the same misconception that most Christians and all Muslims have: That heaven is all about things.

Since then I’ve learned. But it’s so crazy to think that the Islamic version of heaven is essentially the best of the best of the things of this world. It fails and can’t offer anything more. Like I said, most Christians fall into that trap as well.



I agree with Jamie. I think a lot of people (adults and children) think of heaven as a place where they will having everything they want. I think it’s more likely that we will have nothing, and that will be enough. We will no longer have any need for “stuff.” Someone I know even went so far as to say that if we get to heaven and some of our non-believing friends or family aren’t there, we won’t even care. I don’t know if I agree with that, but it’s an interesting point.


Yeah, I would say that heaven is about being with Christ. Things and others, ultimately, won’t matter. Paul said, “My desire is to depart and be with Christ, for that is far better” (Phil. 1:23).

A good test for one’s faith: If you were to have all the best this world offer in heaven yet be without Christ, would you still be satisfied? Hopefully the answer for all of us is “no.”


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